Ever felt stagnant, lost, or uncertain about your next move or things going on in your life? Trust me, I’ve been there and still do that. It’s a normal thing. Sometimes I feel like things are out of my control but that’s life. The older I get, the more I realize I need to start taking control of my life. Yeah, going with the flow is perfect for certain situations but it’s not the best decision all the time. Overall 2017 has been an eye-opener for me. I’ve been in situations that required me to make a decision even though I did not want to. We all want this perfect life where there aren't any obstacles and everything just comes naturally. But the gag is... life isn’t a fairytale. Not everything works in your favor.
At one point this year I did feel discouraged about what I wanted to do pertaining to my career. If you didn’t know, I am in the military. I just re-enlisted for 4 more years and requested to get stationed in Alaska. I was mentally ready to leave Fort Hood. But as the months went on, medical issues started to arise. Come to find out, I was diagnosed with anemia. It was brought up as an issue while I was downrange in 2015 and it popped back up as a major issue in 2017. Long story short, being anemic has really put a halt on me leaving Texas and kinda career-wise. I get tired, fatigued, and cold really easily. Literally, everything drains me physically. Currently, I’m still dealing with this issue.
With all that going on I got super discouraged. I got complacent. My motivation and drive went away. I had thoughts in my head like, what would I do if I got medically discharged? Basically, I let the devil and my negative thoughts get to me. But with the help of close friends, prayer, & my first sergeant, the way I thought about my whole situation changed. I stopped feeling sorry for myself and “BOSSED UP”.
It’s okay to throw a little pity party for yourself but not for long. Like my Old Lady tells me 24/7, pray about it. Don’t let something so small knock you off your feet. Feeling stagnant or uncertain is a part of life but you have to at some point search for the light. Be your biggest hype man especially if you feel like all odds are against you. Quotes really helped me along the way also. Like I do all the time, take a step back and think about your next move and everything going on in your life. I do this when I’m out running or showering. But don’t be so lost in your thoughts haha.
It took me a while to realize life is a crazy rollercoaster and I won’t be getting off this ride anytime soon. The next time you feel like everything is spiraling out of control, take a step back and reevaluate life. We all have a purpose on this earth. Don’t give up. I promise at the end of the tunnel there is something rewarding waiting for you. Stay strong, you got this!
Signing out until next time,